Mood: Hopeful Tonight Song Selection:  Something Inside So Strong Here to the decade. The 2020s.  I want to say I am going to make this my year but that seems so short when life moves so fast.  What even is time and why does it move fast? Why can one year feel like thirty but thirty feel like one?  So instead, I will say that I am going to make this my decade. The 2010s were terrible. Point blank. Period. I lost people I thought I would have forever, made life-altering mistakes and lost myself among the grey.  But through being lost and alone without the world telling me to go left or right, I learnt that it wasn't true darkness and the world wasn't painted in grey. All it really needed was for me, the author of my story, the painter of my masterpiece to take up the paintbrush and try.  You find that when you are alone or think that you are at rock bottom emotionally, the smallest of things can spark a flame. Sometimes the flame comes from wi...

Mood: Humbled  Tonight's Song Selection:  Lemonade Mouth - Somebody The saying goes; You don't know what you are missing until it's gone...Right?...But what if - What is missing is a part of you?  For years, I felt lost, like being on a boat in the middle of the ocean with no sign of direction. It took me years to understand how dance impacted my life. As I said in the beginning, I only started to miss and understand my need for it when I stopped dancing.  I would be the one kid who didn't want to change into my dance clothes, and half-ass the conditioning sessions. But without the structure of dancing, I fell off my rocker.  In high school, I had allowed the people around me to influence my love for dance and that's where it all went wrong in the beginning.  I didn't like competing and I still don't. With games, sports etc., I don't like competing against people in that aggressive manner. In prep school, Luna, my mother if you all remember, h...

Mood: Thankful  Tonight Song Selection:  BTS (방탄소년단) - Two! Three! (Hoping For More Good Days) We live in a world where everything is usually about 'me' and 'I' . We do things to benefit ourselves but in the moment we do not think how it might affect others. We all have a past. Every minute, every second that passes us, in turn, becomes a part of our past. The decision you make now - within this moment - really does affect you, but it also affects people close to you and people who look up to you. In my twenty-three years, I have had to learn from my mistakes. It has been slow and painful, to say the least. But now, looking back, I wouldn't change it. People believe that the quote 'what doesn't kill you makes you stronger' is just someone trying to cheer you up. But behind it, if you look deeper into the message of that quote, is a truth that we will all have to learn at some point or another. I've had to learn to stand alone and stan...