Mood: Humbled  Tonight's Song Selection:  Lemonade Mouth - Somebody The saying goes; You don't know what you are missing until it's gone...Right?...But what if - What is missing is a part of you?  For years, I felt lost, like being on a boat in the middle of the ocean with no sign of direction. It took me years to understand how dance impacted my life. As I said in the beginning, I only started to miss and understand my need for it when I stopped dancing.  I would be the one kid who didn't want to change into my dance clothes, and half-ass the conditioning sessions. But without the structure of dancing, I fell off my rocker.  In high school, I had allowed the people around me to influence my love for dance and that's where it all went wrong in the beginning.  I didn't like competing and I still don't. With games, sports etc., I don't like competing against people in that aggressive manner. In prep school, Luna, my mother if you all remember, h...

Mood: Reminiscing Tonight's Song Selection: Claude Debussy - Clair de Lune  "longing" noun long·​ing | \ ˈlȯŋ-iŋ    Definition of longing a strong desire especially for something unattainable: craving "reminiscence" noun rem·​i·​nis·​cence | \ ˌre-mə-ˈni-sᵊn(t)s Definition of reminiscence       1: the apprehension of a Platonic idea as if it had been known in a previous existence 2 a:  recall to the mind of a long-forgotten experience or fact 2b: the process or practice of thinking or telling about past experiences 3a:  a remembered experience 3b: an account of a memorable experience — often used in plural 4: something so like another as to be regarded as an unconscious repetition, imitation, or survival Both definitions are taken from the Merriam-Webster Dictionary. The words portray the exact feeling I have when I listen to music and when I dance, and what it all means t...