Mood: Humbled  Tonight's Song Selection:  Lemonade Mouth - Somebody The saying goes; You don't know what you are missing until it's gone...Right?...But what if - What is missing is a part of you?  For years, I felt lost, like being on a boat in the middle of the ocean with no sign of direction. It took me years to understand how dance impacted my life. As I said in the beginning, I only started to miss and understand my need for it when I stopped dancing.  I would be the one kid who didn't want to change into my dance clothes, and half-ass the conditioning sessions. But without the structure of dancing, I fell off my rocker.  In high school, I had allowed the people around me to influence my love for dance and that's where it all went wrong in the beginning.  I didn't like competing and I still don't. With games, sports etc., I don't like competing against people in that aggressive manner. In prep school, Luna, my mother if you all remember, h...

Mood: Solemn  Tonight's Song Selection:  BTS RM - Persona  I personally enjoy this read on ikigai: Enlivenment Jung's Map of the Soul: If you want to go deeper into understanding the Jungian archetypes and the journey to love oneself, I would recommend, Jung's Map of the Soul by Murray Stein.  The questions we tend to hear in life is:  What do you want to do? Why do you want to do it? Do you love it? Why are you doing it if you don't love it? Then comes the buts, ifs, and maybe so. If you did it this way... But that way isn't best... Maybe that 'could' work...but I think you 'should' do it this way... Hey world, two words,  SHUT UP! Not everyone has the ability or personality to do what they love as a career. That's why hobbies exist and people are multifaceted creatures, we can love many different things. Not all of them has to be the one we can call our career.  Humans tend to judge others ...

Mood: Reminiscing Tonight's Song Selection: Claude Debussy - Clair de Lune  "longing" noun long·​ing | \ ˈlȯŋ-iŋ    Definition of longing a strong desire especially for something unattainable: craving "reminiscence" noun rem·​i·​nis·​cence | \ ˌre-mə-ˈni-sᵊn(t)s Definition of reminiscence       1: the apprehension of a Platonic idea as if it had been known in a previous existence 2 a:  recall to the mind of a long-forgotten experience or fact 2b: the process or practice of thinking or telling about past experiences 3a:  a remembered experience 3b: an account of a memorable experience — often used in plural 4: something so like another as to be regarded as an unconscious repetition, imitation, or survival Both definitions are taken from the Merriam-Webster Dictionary. The words portray the exact feeling I have when I listen to music and when I dance, and what it all means t...